Monday, November 23, 2009
Even the untrained eye can see something's not quite right with this MRI of my spine. I ruptured a disc. Don't ask me how, I don't really know. The most honest answer is I've been carrying around too much for too long without adequate rest.
I've spent the last week laying in bed strengthening my patience.
From the moment we started to dream about buying this house we felt it deserved a name. Before we lived here we considered the Villa Loco. It seemed such a crazy dream and a crazy house and admittedly our life is plenty crazy. But as soon as we moved in--we knew that name wasn't right. There's a peacefulness about our home and our yard--a sense of enchantment. In the morning and the evening the fog rolls in and sometimes it looks like the whole yard is floating in clouds. I toyed with names involving dragons since we have an abundance of dragon fruit: Dragon Head, Dragon Orchard, Dragon Dreams. I suggested the more prosaic Pomegranate Point or Persimmon Point. Every suggestion was shot down until I suggested: Paciencia. The Spanish word for patience.
So much requires patience. It will take many years before this house and yard reach their potential. The same can be said of my children and myself. All the fruit bearing trees in the yard are tokens of patience. You must wait many months, sometimes years for good things to bear fruit.
Naming my house--even in my own head--has brought me some comfort. I like to think when I come home and enter our front courtyard--that I've entered a state of patience. Patience is an overlooked virtue. It seems like doing nothing, but it's not really, patience is about sustaining hope.
I also like what Neal A. Maxwell said:
"Patience is a willingness, in a sense to watch the unfolding purposes of God with a sense of wonder and awe--rather than pacing up and down in the cell of our circumstances."
My sister and brother are coming in town for Thanksgiving today. I'm flat on my back while my dad cleans the guest bathroom. It so happens that this all falls during one of Bill's busiest weeks at work. Sometimes in life all we can do is be patient.